You are in my heart

Fast I want say I don’t like English that much. So, I don’t think I can make 8888 here, but I will try my best to let u know how much I love u.

Kk I want say sorry about my 5 sec. I really feel be seized with remorse. I know it’s hurting you badly, I am sorry I did that, u know it was 3 years ago I was too young for that shit…… I am sorry baby… but I am happy you can forgive me，forgive everything I did. In that three days I was thinking about you every min, I cannot do anything, B/C all I know is think about you, about what did I do and why I did that. I was really worry, worry about you will say good bay to me, I admit in that three day I was not looking good at all, that’s why my father jk with me about my hair. I know that’s true…….. B/C I can feel I was really tied. I remember when I was young I was watching TV show, in the show they say that when someone gone then you will know how to treasure. That’s exactly what I am feeling; I feel you are walk away from me. I am sorry, thank you forgive me thank you, you give me one more chance, and I will treasure you more than my own life.

You are the fast girl really in my heart; I believe we can be with each other for ever. I never love a girl, I had girl friend before, but I know I don’t love them, I like them, like them as a best friend, as what you said by that time I was too young to understand what’s love. However now I am 20 years old, I understand love and I have my love now, the love that’s you. I can’t imagine what I’m going to do without you. I can’t imagine after I go back America what’s my life going to be. Its Aug 7 right now, if I got my visa I will leave at 22th, we only have 12days start tight now. I can’t believe time is passing so fast, I remember when I back in china, the fast day I was thinking, oh my god I have such long time in shanghai , what should I do, I was thinking go to Japan for a week and go to Honking for another week. However time is past too fast, it’s all because of you, last year I was in china for 1 month, but what I was feeling is longer than this time, everything is same I sleep in the same house, same bad. And my family is always there with me, same good food as last year, the only thing changed is you, last year I was not with you, this year I am in love with you. I remember before you play tennis we don’t see each other every day. When you start play tennis, I told my coach to play tennis with you, so every day I can see you and be with you for all afternoon. I love the feeling be with you. Every day I will go out my house one hour early to pick you up, I know its farther, but I don’t care because I want be with you more time, every time when you see me driveling you love to play around with me, and I always saying no no I am driveling its dangerous, u laugh at me and witting for a red light. Pinch is not a good movement…. Every time you pinch me, it’s not feeling well; especially you have the skill to pain me badly. I love the feeling to lead along your hand, my right hand with your left hand, together with love. I love you; I love you more than I love my life. I remember the fast time I cry for a girl. I never thought I will cry for a girl, but as you see, I did, I cannot control myself I can’t control my tear. I wish I can see you every day,

 I wish I can be with you every day;

 I wish I can hug you to dream the future.

I wish the time can stop. 12 more days, I cannot believe that.

I try to make this to the end, because I know when I writing this to you,

I will feel sad,

I will cry like a baby,

I will think about the pass,

I will remember the happy time we had,

 I will remember every time I telling you to hang up the phone.

May be I am too weak, maybe I am not a real man, I want witting this to them end, I want writing this in the middle night when everyone is sleeping, because I don’t want my family to see me cry, to see me sad, I know I will………..

I remember the article in your MSN, the one about the phone call. I wasn’t discovering about the idea. But right now I feel it. today I called you, and I let you hang up the phone fast, that was fast time I feel that the busy tone can hitting my heart that bad, my tear out of my control drift down on my face, its bitter. But good thing is no one sees me. Ha ha ha ha.

I remember the first time we hug in the book store

I remember the first time we kiss in the movie

I remember the first time we lead along hand in the car

I remember the first time we crying in the car

I remember the first time we laugh together in the restaurant

I remember the first time you let me try the 竹叶青

I remember the first time I go to your home

I remember the first time I hug you and tell you how much I love you

I remember the first time I tell you the ghost story you was hugging me

I remember the first time I tell you the decadent story you were laugh on the flow

I remember the first time you call me wasabi

I remember the first time you call me 老公

I remember the first time you say to me I miss you

I remember the first time you say to me I love you

I remember the first time you drive my car

I remember …………..

Too much things I remember

Remember your face

Remember your smile

Remember your long heir

Remember your manner of speaking

Remember your nature and hoppy

And

I remember every time we said same sentence in same time…..

The sweet feeling and say yes and mean no; affirm with yours lips but deny in one's heart.

(口是心非的感觉)

I remember everything you said, everything you did, happy and sad, sweet and bitter ……..everything.

恩。。。这是一篇没有完成的文章，因为某些特殊原因，这文章没有写完

但是这短短的文章，却让我投入了无数心血与泪水

在我写这篇东西的过程中，无数次我看着电脑发呆，无数次我停止写作，无数次我想放弃。。。

最后当我决定在我出发的路上写完这篇文章的时候,特殊的事情发生了

看来老天爷也舍不得我离开你，他多给了我们很多时间，能让我多陪陪你。

虽然这篇东西可能写不完了

但是前面的一些也包括了我对你的无限想念

希望你能开开心心的过好每一天是我最大的心愿

Wasabi love sake

Wasabi

2008 Aug. 24 23:55